I love it! Don't give up. Winning is not the most important thing in life. It's about enjoying the process, enjoying creating art. Believe me, I know all about it. I always wanted to win as a kid, now I just want to enjoy the game, making art, life, as much as I can.
Keep up the good work. I really like it and it's nice that you share the process too.
P.S. Perhaps it helps to take a look on my blog too. I share a lot of my art ( finished and unfinished ).