A change of mindset

Ever since I got into the big field of crypto I've been stressed without even knowing it. I learned and got into this field at the end of December last year. Ever since then it has been the thing that's at the front of my mind and had most of my attention. I bounced between learning new words and actually experiencing it. Play-to-earns, defi, blockchain, airdrops, staking, and trading were just some of the things I tried my hands at. But there was a commonality among them all: I was in it for the money.
My sight was set on growing the sum that I had invested into the field. I can say with certainty that after two months of being preoccupied with it all that it's been stressful.
Did I lose any money? Yes, I lost and made some back. I invested $300 and my balance is a little over $400 now. It's been a really stressful experience. Looking at the price of things going up and down, hoping and waiting for some events to happen or for someone to do something to cause the price to go up or down is torture.
I don't want to think about money anymore. I don't want to notice the words "investment", "profit", or "income" anymore.
The stress isn't worth it. Even if I had made a few thousand dollars in pure profit or even more it still isn't worth the stress.
I'm washing my hand from this whole investment thing and money-centered mindset.
Will I still play Splinterlands or write stuff on Hive? Honestly I'm not sure. But if I were to continue to do so I wouldn't think of money at all. It'd be interesting to try and play Splinterlands without putting any money into it.
I've gone many days with my RC at maximum. It didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. But the stress from this whole investing thing is really getting to me.
I think I'll just focus on my job and however much I make I'll just be content with it.
Contentment is important after all. Otherwise the suffering would never end. There's a vast chasm between what we want and what we actually get.
I think I should find a field of interest to write about. At least it'll provide me with materials to write about. And like I mentioned in an earlier post, I feel like if I can continue to write then something good just might happen one day. It always helps to become better at something. And becoming a better writer is not bad at all.
I was going to look up the list of topics and things that I can write about, but I think I won't do that after all.
I'll write what comes from inside. I'll write it as I would write fiction, not knowing what I'm going to end up writing but exploring the topic as I write. And that's it for five hundred words.