Alone With the Moon ...Part 3 ...Over the Barriers

Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences,
penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.
― Maya Angelou

Raj as Mentor

I’m sitting in Coro’s having lunch with Raj who’s not only my friend but an Adlearian therapist—and it’s his psychological expertise I’m seeking today because these mystic experiences with my co-worker Mariyan are driving me crazy.

Raj finds my obsession with Mariyan amusing but he also sees my angst and launches into teaching mode to excplain some of the cultural differences between her and me so to put my mind at ease.

He particularly concentrates on what I call her aura—the faint luminesence I occasionally see surrounding her.

Frankly, it scares the hell right out of me.

“What you’re seeing is the farr,” he patiently explains, “it’s the visible manifestation of God’s glory often seen resting on caliphs, kings, sultans, and imams—it’s a sign of God’s favor.”

Obviously this girl is someone special in her world and I can't imagine what she'd see in me.

Disillusionment must have been clearly visible on my face. I feel Mariyan and I are separated by a great divide.

“You look disappointed, my friend. Do you have feelings for this woman?”

“No, of course not. We’ve barely spoken.”

“I see.” His eyes are dancing. I ignore his obvious skepticism.

“It’s this damn dream,” I growl exasperated, “and now this strange vision —it’s weird and unsettling, that’s all.”

“I take it by using the term, ‘vision’, you’re referring to her ‘aura.’

Again, I ignore his sarcasm and try to keep things focused. “It was more like smoke surrounding her.”

“Ah, so now she’s veiled in mist. Well, it must be strange for you growing up in this culture and then encountering a cultural distinction such as the seclusion of women from men. Perhaps you have never had to deal with such issues such as modesty, privacy and morality when dating western women.”

I refuse to take the bait.

I don’t want to spar with Raj today. I need him to get serious.

I shake my head sadly. “I don’t think it’s a matter of her virtue or modesty, Raj—mind you, not that I’ve had many dates with women lately for that to be an issue. It’s crazy. I’ve hardly spoken to her and yet I feel confused and unsettled by her.”

“Perhaps you could begin by conversing with her.”

The irony in his voice makes me wonder if he feels offended I’m struggling about being attracted to a Muslim woman.

Still, I’ve known Raj a long time—surely I can be honest with him about my feelings.

Suddenly, he blurts out, “Maybe you’re afraid to ask her out.”

“I don’t know, Pal—I’m intrigued, but I’m way outside my comfort zone.”

“But in your dream, you said you saw her through a trellis—hardly an imposing barrier.”

“Yeah, but c’mon Raj—she wears a hijab, for God’s sake.”

“Hmm. I could have sworn you said a loose fitting headscarf. I think you’re being evasive, Markus—you’re obviously intrigued. Why don’t you just put the mystery to rest and ask her out?”

I put up my hands in a mock gesture of surrender. “Okay, you’re right. I guess I’m just feeling off balance—dealing with something I just don’t understand.”

“Why not sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment, my friend?”

He pushes the restaurant receipt toward me. “And you can start by paying the tab for my wisdom.”

I grin ruefully, embarrassed at appearing needy. “I’ll take your advice, Raj, and try asking her out, but let’s give Rumi some credit for the wisdom.”

He laughs and lifts his glass as a toast. “Touché, my friend—so, you’re not entirely unaware of Islamic culture.”

Hopefully, Mariyan’s not totally unaware of me, I muse.

To be continued…

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